My Acceptance of My Archetype

I was really open and I let myself go with this PMAI assessment. I really thought about the question being asked instead of me just going "neutral" like I usually do. I get very skeptical with these types of tests because I always wonder how a test can really evaluate someone without even getting to know the person.
As I read about archetypes I was intrigued at the fact that I could take this test and see it as a story.

I was evaluated to be

1. Seeker
2. Jester
3. Warrior
4. Ruler
5. Sage

My lowest Score

1. Innocent

I read about each archetype and how I related to each type. Then I saw a story of how each character has ruled a story in my life. Instead of labeling myself as a Seeker or Ruler, I used those terms to create my character in a story. I then thought about how the archetype of Innocent fell into my story. I realized that I once had attributes of innocence but grew out of them. Now, whenever I notice someone who has an archetype of innocence I try to change them.

I would really like to discuss my low score: My Shadow Archetype

Innocent-
Developing trust, optimism, confidence to take the journey

Pitfalls: Naive, childish dependence, denial, obliviousness

I feel growing up I was a very innocent character. My attitude consisted of optimism even when things went completely wrong. I would trust anyone and this sometimes would be my downfall. Growing up I trusted friends who got me in trouble and I took the fall for a lot of it. As I grew into a more confident person the shadow of innocence still follows me. As the youngest child, I still acquire dependence on acts I should now take in as an adult. My biggest pitfall is denial, I still have a hard time confronting the truth to myself and others. I have noticed this in myself and I have tried to improve a little at a time but I sometimes still give in to the easy way out.

I would like to share a story that has definitely expressed me being in denial. My story begins with me trusting people that I should have kept my guard up with. I allowed myself to have fun that exceeded into "too much" fun. At a bar I was overconfident that someone would take care of me if I got too out of hand. In the end I woke up to reality. All my belongings stolen, feeling sick and dizzy, and lost on a street with no help. After I found the police and spoke to my parents I felt so ashamed. I took a test to see if I had been exposed to any type of drug. I was so scared to find any results and in the end I had tested positive to being drugged. I could not bare talking to anyone about this because I knew this was my fault. There is more to the story...but like I mentioned before...I do a little at a time...

I believe that the shadow archetype follows me to remind me what I need to grow out of. The pitfalls is what I have fallen into and now I need to watch that as an adult, Innocence is not my friend.

"All things truly wicked start from Innocence"- Ernest Hemingway